What is your relationship with silence? Do you feel comfortable with nothing but your thoughts and silence as company? Or does it make you restless? Do you have moments when you are in the midst of friends but long to escape to be alone with your thoughts?
I have a peculiar relationship with silence. I say peculiar because not many will be able to understand it. In previous posts, I have briefly touched upon my need to lie low and rejuvenate sometimes. This need gets amplified manifold if I socialize for long periods of time without taking the time to rest and recuperate.
As a person, I identify myself as an ambivert, someone for whom striking a healthy balance between socializing and spending time in quietude is of equal and paramount importance. I truly believe that sitting in silence is sometimes all the therapy one needs. As you listen to your thoughts and travel inward, you expunge the negativity that simmers within, thereby liberating yourself.
There are days when the noise around begins to overshadow our inner voice, and whether by intent or otherwise, we push our thoughts away, especially if they seem too convoluted for us to understand. We feel if we drown our inner voice long enough, it might eventually fade away but it hardly ever does, at least not in my case. In fact, the more I shun my inner voice, the more pronounced it becomes. To that end, I consciously try to unplug and connect with my inner self regularly. I try not to go for extended periods of time without setting aside some ‘quiet time’. It is what keeps me going, through all the chaotic mess that my life sometimes is. On such days, all I need is a cup of strong coffee, soft, soothing music to set the mood and my thoughts as company. It is the medicine that calms me and heals me simultaneously.
Some people cower at the thought of spending time alone in silence, describing it as having an eerie, deafening quality about it, almost with the ability to pull them in its tailspin. But, I feel otherwise. In fact, I cannot emphasize enough the role silence plays in my life. l do not just look forward to it, but also revel in it, sometimes even unusually so.
Silence, in itself, is all-encompassing; supporting and healing us, as it were. Allow it to wash you in its waves and listen to its untold stories as it does!
“I’ve begun to realize that you can listen to silence and learn from it. It has a quality and a dimension all its own.”